Enter the City

“The Devastated” by Jennifer Bannan

Once, when we were visiting the Everglades camp, my second husband Brian sent us into fearful conniptions by stumbling off drunk to lie down and look at the stars. We didn’t know where he was and he wasn’t answering our calls.

This isn’t good, my dad said. People get walking in the wrong direction, he said, loading his gun, and they never come back. Somehow, I knew Brian wasn’t far, but Dad shot twelve rounds into the air nonetheless.

I wonder if it irked Dad that it wasn’t the gun that finally woke Brian, but the continued bellows of me and my sister. He emerged from the sawgrass, tripping over cypress stumps. He begged our forgiveness, trying to explain how the Milky Way had lured him. It was so beautiful.

Though he’s been to the Everglades twice before, those trips started with visits to my parents in Central Florida. Brian hasn’t seen Miami yet. He has only heard my stories. And now he’s dying of pancreatic cancer, in his late forties. We’re traveling the world – Thailand, Laos, Tulum, Cuba – and one of our stops will be the place that shaped me.

We drive, sunshine and air conditioning providing that particular mix I’ve never felt like it feels in Miami. There’s the house on Tenth terrace where I grew up. There’s the Denny’s where I worked – the mini mall now much fancier than it was back then, more landscaping, slick specialty shops.

We’re driving West on Tamiami Trail. I tell him what he probably knows, that an hour on this road would bring us to Monroe Station, where my dad kept his swamp buggy parked. The buggy and the camp were sold to an amiable guy who has shown he’s willing to host our visits out there. My parents sold it without even telling me and my sister. Because we live far away with our families. Because we’re girls. I believe a son would have been afforded right of first refusal. When I said as much to my mom, told her to put Dad on the phone, she panicked, she urged reason, We didn’t want to burden you. How would you fix a swamp buggy, how would you fix anything out there? I’ve known the Everglades since my earliest memories, loved it enough to name my youngest, and Brian’s only child, Cypress. They could have told us, could have given us the smallest say.

I turn off the Trail, driving the circuit. I show Brian the simple stucco box that was my first boyfriend’s home. Memories of salsa parties on the back patio, of the grandmother always sweeping the rug. Here: the Westchester mall where we kids would go for bistec and papas fritas.

Brian, stretching his lips weird because the chemo has left his mouth dry, doesn’t say much. I feel selfish spending time on these memories when time is precious. But then, he’s someone who loves big, and he loves me, so what better way to be in the world right now? Place is a part of us, and so this place will also be a part of our son Cypress, growing with him in mysterious ways. It’s important to see.

Next: Pat’s house, where friends blew a hole in the wall with a military-grade firearm. There’s my elementary school. The sidewalk where, as I biked, a teenager grabbed my ass and then showed me his handgun.

“They kept the boot to your neck,” he says of the violence, of the particular way it was directed at girls.

I’m reminded of another time, when he said, “We’re the devastated generation,” about all the toxins and consumerism and depletion of nature that had been normalized for us. And he said that before he knew about the cancer.

It’s true, the female experience of violence is unique, like the gun that forces declarations of love. We’re supposed to say how we like the boot to the neck, how it suits us.

But also, everything I loved. What the boot couldn’t take from me. The banyans of Coral Way. The beach at night like a black and white movie. The teacher assigning me The Autobiography of Benvenuto Cellini, allowing me to see myself in a grand, artistic way. The deep, pure yearning, emboldened by the crisp blue sky.

And, oh Brian, of the devastated generation. Your dying is proof enough that the boot hurts everyone, that the boot is on everyone’s neck. Every generation and all of us in it. All of us, again and again, bearing the devastation. Repeating the very cycle we’d hoped to disrupt.

Jennifer Bannan’s (jenniferbannan.com) second short story collection, Tamiami Trail, is forthcoming from Carnegie Mellon University Press Fall 2025. She has had stories in the Autumn House Press anthology, Keeping the Wolves at Bay, the Kenyon Review online, ACM, Passages North, Chicago Quarterly Review and more.

“Moon Over Salt Lake City” by Jennifer Blackledge

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over the temple encrusted in
an exoskeleton of scaffolding and cranes,
over the lake bed’s lunar flats
where I mistook pickled, half-buried ducks
for driftwood and dry grass,
over my glass hotel where I scrub
white brine dust off my black suede shoes.

I walked and walked across an endless
sand and salt plain, between the lot of
parked cars and the salt-broth water,
tiny scattered people moving as
slow and distant from each other
as stars in a constellation.

I still hadn’t reached water by the time
the sun dipped to the first mountain but
I turned around anyway, anxious
to outwalk the absolute dark.
Tidal forces pull me into the car and
back toward the city,
moon over its motherboard of lights,
mountains like teeth behind it.

Weak sun, bold moon,
salt as purifier, salt as punisher.
My shoes wear a ring of white,
my hair a dry rime of silver down the middle.
The moon rises over glittering towers and salt crystals
as a low sun slides into unswimmable water.
I might be driftwood. I whisper like dry grass.
All week people have been distant as stars
and shifting like sand.
I haven’t seen the same face twice.

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Jennifer Blackledge works in the automotive industry and lives just south of Detroit. She has an MFA from Brown University and her work has appeared or is forthcoming in JAMA, I-70 Review, Scientific American, The Lake, Verdad, Kestrel, Twelve Mile Review, SWWIM and elsewhere. Read more at http://www.jenniferblackledge.com.

City Photography by Roger Leege

Roger Leege is a photo-artist who draws on his past as a lawn boy, meat cutter, trucker, EMT, carpenter, bass player, painter, embalmer’s assistant, weed-eater, printmaker, union agitator, journalist, videographer, educator, computer scientist, and deep blue Florida man, to tell his tales.

He keeps much more of his art at rogerleege.com.

“Walking in Chinatown” by Sarah A. Etlinger

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While walking in Chinatown, Allie says
If I had married my college boyfriend, I’d be a single mom on welfare.
We are drinking bubble tea, its sunset colors and glistening dark pearls
pressed against the cup like faces come to the window.
Jason picks up a knob of ginseng, holds it to his nose.
We palm lumps of sugared ginger,
the transparent moons of lychee candies glow against our skin.
Across the street a plant spills itself onto a cement stoop.
Above a doorway, like a brass god, a man chokes sound from his guitar, indifferent to us.
Three hours until dark. The El arrives and we enter, one by one, into our own lives.

Sarah

Sarah A. Etlinger is an English professor who lives in Milwaukee, WI.. A Pushcart and Best of the Net nominee, she is the author of 4 books; most recently, A Bright Wound (Cornerstone Press 2024). Recent work appears in Spoon River Poetry Review, Pithead Chapel, Rattle, and many others.

“Chiang Mai” by Neal Donahue

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The Muslim call to prayer
awakens us at quarter to six
in the morning, the pulsing
voice otherworldly and insistent.

We find ourselves in Chiang Mai,
a market city, prosperous and
alive, a religious mecca with
golden temples and Buddhist monks.

The air is cool and fresh,
a welcome change from Bangkok,
and we are uplifted by flowers and
the majesty of surrounding mountains.

As we make our way upward
on the winding mountain road,
the city falls away below, a busy hub
in the shadow of Suthep Doi.

At the temple, we ring the bells,
their throbbing tones rising up
toward heaven, the benevolent
spirits welcoming our prayers.

Neal

Neal Donahue majored in English at the University of Oklahoma, then served 5 years as a submarine officer. After his stint in the Navy, he taught elementary school in Massachusetts and Vermont, incorporating poetry into his curriculum. Neal has had a number of poems published in small journals.

Photography by David A. Goodrum

David A. Goodrum, photographer/writer lives in Oregon. His photos have graced the covers of Cirque Journal, Willows Wept Review, Blue Mesa Review, Ilanot Review, Red Rock Review, The Moving Force Journal, Snapdragon Journal, Vita Poetica and appeared in many others.

See additional work (photography and poetry) at http://www.davidgoodrum.com

Two Poems by Sarah Zietlow

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The View from My Balcony

The corner of Animas and Campanario
Centro Habana, Cuba

Three boys shoot marbles on the sidewalk below
the laundry their mothers strung from one crumbling balcony
to the next. Each glass orb, glistening, bounces into the street
and underneath the ‘55 Buick Special, painted Tiffany Blue
over Bondo, and parked beside mounds of trash on the corner
where old men pick through the rubbish, seeking useful things

hidden in a sea of plastic bottles and rancid food. Things
like one aluminum can, just peeking out from below
soiled diapers and molded, rotten fruit—one crushed corner
of the can gleaming in the sunlight, just visible from my balcony
above. Two blocks up the road, the Malecón heralds the blue
Atlantic beyond, where a north wind blows down the street,

bringing with it dreams of Florida and another sun-drenched street
somewhere in the south of Miami. Alicia upstairs says that things
are better there. In Florida, the sky and the water are impossibly blue—
Madres, padres, and their familias, can escape out from below
the crumbling facades here that threaten to crush them. One balcony
fell last week and took the whole building with it, just around the corner

from here. Four cubanos muertos, Alicia tells me, on that corner,
but you wouldn’t know it after the rubble was swept from the street.
¿De donde eres? the cubanos, one after another, call up to my balcony,
and after my response, shout, ¡Americana! America, after all, a thing
they’ve imagined in a daydream more than once upon a time. Below,
a woman walks past to empty her trash into the pile beside this blue

building on this blue street in this blue town, under a sky of blue
that makes everything still somehow seem gray. I wonder if this corner
is the same as any other, but then remember Miramar, just west. Below
each building there, the view is not like this. On each manicured street,
freshly-pressed suits stroll from one embassy to the next. Everything
is planted and pruned and contorted into lies that echo off each balcony

here in no-man’s land, where Yessie sells cigarillos from her balcón
for thirty-five cents a pack, and cold cervezas in cans of green and blue
for only forty more. But these little luxuries are the bigger things
that most cubanos in Centro cannot afford. On every corner
up and down Campanario, the buildings close in on the calle,
and an invisible gray fog settles more each day on everyone below.Perched high on a Habana balcony, I miss the little things:
The boy in blue shoots pebbles of plaster into the street
from the corner of the curb, and there are no marbles below.

This Side of Negril

Down here at the West End
on Hylton Avenue is where
Wen fries snapper at his roadside stand
on Sundays. Red sauce too,
poured over rice and peas
with a side of slaw on top. I’ll
wait across the way at Whoopie’s and I’ll
save you a seat at the westernmost end
of the bar. Together, we’ll share each piece
while the sun sinks (the sky wears
his Sunday best) down, journeying on to
the Caymans, Belize, then Guatemala. Stands
of palms hold hammocks, and you’ll stand
at the edge of the cliff—the edge of this isle,
while I’ll snap just a picture or two
before the green flash that comes at the end
of the day. The Canadian ex-pat, Brian, wears
another Hawaiian shirt and breaks off a piece
of his gizzada—and another piece
for the goat that stands
nudging her nose at the pocket where
the bag used to be. I’ll
call Ardie over from the other end
of the bar, and order two
more. Red Stripe for you, and a white rum too,
with fresh-squeezed orange juice and a piece
of hand-chipped ice.

                                                   Back at East End
women in shanty-town stands
sell tchotchkes arranged in tightly-packed aisles
to American tourists come to ogle there,
just steps, but a world away from their
all-inclusive hells (women that wear too
much makeup and too much money).

                                                                                     I’ll
take my rice and peas and the peace
of the doctor birds that flit through stands
of ackee trees down here at the West End.
Before she closes tonight, you stop for a few pieces
of bacon, two potatoes, and four eggs from Dora’s stand.
We’ll fry it all in the morning for breakfast—at the West End.

Sarah Zietlow is from a small town in northeast Ohio where she currently teaches language arts to 7th-grade students. She holds a BA in Education from the University of Akron, an MA in English from Bowling Green State University, and is currently working on an MFA in Creative writing in the Bluegrass Writers Studio at Eastern Kentucky University. Sarah’s work has appeared or is forthcoming in Adanna and Merion West. In her free time, Sarah enjoys sitting by campfires with her husband while simultaneously staring at the stars and contemplating how best to sell off all she owns in an effort to find herself in some place other than Cleveland.

Zietlow

 

“Umbrella” by Peter Rustin

Not What I Expected

We both agreed: eff it, let’s not cook.  It was the first hot night in May, and the air had that 7 p.m. green/grey heaviness.  This usually heralds the kind of thunderstorm that, in 15 minutes, cleans the air of the fragrances of the now-ubiquitous reefer and garbage, to be replaced by ozone and the leaves of the valiant sycamores in Central Park.

Our jobs were energy vampires: Vanessa endures her waitership at an expense-account Midtown restaurant where Amex Platinum holders pay $32 for a mediocre burger.  I’m an IT guy for a hedge fund.  Our life-force was too low that evening for us to weave around each other to cook in what was risibly described by the coiffed realtor as a Manhattan “kitchenette.” 

So, after we changed into our civilian gear (jeans and Converse for me; pale blue sundress for Vanessa) we headed out to Wok Cottage, our default neighborhood joint about 6 blocks away on Amsterdam.  Yeah, it’s nothing to look at, but the food was consistently good, and we loved the whole old-school Chinese restaurant vibe: the grimy plastic-encased menus with the red edges still dangling ancient gold tassels; the torn leatherette booths; the paper placemats with the Chinese Zodiac (amusingly, we were both Year of The Rat); the hint of orange in the fortune cookies.

Right away, I could tell something was off the moment we sat down.  Vanessa usually sits next to me in the 4-person booth that we always gravitate towards.  Tonight, though, she sat opposite me; what was that?  A classic Vanessa move would be to suggest some absurdly gross item (rabbit head is always a sound choice, as is duck blood soup).  But this evening she immediately suggested the usual Szechuan beef. 

If I’ve learned anything from stand-up comedians, it’s to not ask questions, but to let your girlfriend get there on her own dime.  So, I waited.  And sure enough, it came before the waiter did.

“Dave?  Can we talk?”

Oh, shit.  “Sure, of course.  What’s up, V?”

“So listen. Are you happy?”

Is there a right answer to that question?  If you say yes, and they disagree, you’re an asshole.  If you say, “uh, not really,” but they are happy, you’re still an asshole.  I warily cocked my head.

“Anyway, I’ve been thinking,” she continued.  “We like the same music, we like the same bands, we like the same clothes….”

She knew that this quote from Springsteen’s “Bobby Jean” would make me smile and lighten the mood.  Still, I waited.

“I know that this is out of the blue and we have never discussed it, and you probably never even thought about it, but…. (deep breath). What about you and me getting married this summer?”

She was wrong.  I had thought about it, plenty. But can I be honest?  I had always thought Vanessa was a bit out of my league, with her careless beauty, quick wit and an effortless ability to charm any group, anytime.  And so, I was kind of waiting for the shoe to drop, thinking that I was on borrowed time to begin with, and when the inevitable breakup came, I’d just be grateful for what I had had.

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Two Poems by Milton Jordan

Habits

I made a habit, then, of leaving
my third-floor apartment late each evening
to walk a few blocks down Fifth to Main
as movie marquees began to dim,
colored neon tubes attracted departing
crowds to bars and cafes while solitary
walkers, familiar from our nightly sojourns,
turned back along numbered side streets
toward rooms we’d left a short time before
and scanned TV listings for midnight features.

Midtown

I spent my better alone moments
on a crowded city street corner bench
where Lamar crossed Fannin in that silence
only stalled and honking traffic can create.

I preferred the evening glow of sunset
reflected off windows of multi-storied
office buildings followed by streetlights
slowly spreading into view.

I did not bring my notebook to that corner
nor record thoughts on a not that small
device hanging in my right shoulder bag
to save the scenes that might elude my memory.

I brought the corner back with me after dark,
pedestrians rushing from those offices,
the couple out for early supper,
the harried driver late for his.

I ride the much-reduced bus service
to that bench and the sun’s shattered setting
reflected off broken ninth story windows,
unlit streetlights disappearing in shadow.

I received Council’s Houston Tomorrow
Proclamation: “A New City Center”
adorned with full color renditions
of smaller buildings and bayou park trails.

I note the careful absence of specifics,
a failure to mention financial figures,
and speculate on Council’s slim chance
of progress toward Houston’s Tomorrow.

Milton

Milton Jordan, after many years in Houston, now lives with Anne in Georgetown, Texas. His work has appeared in anthologies, collections and journals, most recently, “Fellowship,” “Spitball” and “Texas Poetry Assignment.”

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